9.22.2003

NP: Blood on the Motorway - DJ Shadow

Today has gone very smoothly thus far. Sociology was cancelled this morning, which was nice. It isn't a hard class anyway, but it was one less worry. I only wish I had known sooner so I might have slept in. Seminar consisted of watching a Lewis and Clark documentary (which possessed a very soothing soundtrack, nearly lulling me to sleep). Humanities will once again consist of Dantean discussion, and then I'm home free. Unfortunately, home means much more work. I have Logic homework, shotokan, and trash-gathering to do.

I went to a movie night at Amy's last night. A bunch of her friends from Alpha Kappa Psi came, and we watched Grosse Pointe Blank, a very enjoyable movie. It was a little strange, though: save Amy, I didn't know anyone at the party. I just did my usual routine of sitting outside the conversation circle and observing. Only after everyone left did I feel comfortable enough to speak.

Being an introvert is quite frustrating. I'm watching all the extroverts around me, talking, laughing, enjoying life, and I wonder why the world is so geared toward them. I suppose they are a majority, but regardless, there ought to be some way for introverts to function in society. As my last entry illustrated, I want to be a part of this social structure, I just don't know how. These people seem so interesting, and I fear I'm reaching the limit of all that can be learned as an outside observer. I would enter their conversations, but it seems I have nothing of value to add. No witty retorts, no profound insights, no questions.

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