NP: ember - Fold Zandura

So last night, for the first time in at least six years, I had a truly frightening dream.

At curtain, I was moving into my new apartment, but the apartment in my dream wasn't anything close to its real-life inspiration. Instead, it was a two-level, three-bedroom suite I was to share with two unknown females. Thinking nothing of it (one never does in dreams), I proceeded with the moving-in and decorating. The day after everything was settled, Patrick came over and we were just hanging out when a boyfriend of one of my unnamed suitemates decided to hold some sort of Satanic revival in the basement-turned-ampitheater. Patrick and I declined to participate, at which point he bound our hands and had a minion hold us at gun-point during the goings-on. I managed to free my hands and was trying to find my cell phone to dial 911, but my pocket had (as usual) a few dollars' worth of change in it. Thus, finding my phone wasn't a quiet ordeal. I woke before the situation was resolved.

Then, at about 2:00 PM today, I took an impromptu nap on my couch. During said nap, I had another, more disturbing dream. I was visiting a friend's family whose house I'd been to several times before (though not in that dream or any other I can remember). I had memories of the family claiming the house was haunted by a family of ghosts, but unlike normal ghosts, these appeared as neon-green outlines of their former selves. Needless to say, very weird. I never took them seriously, but the fear in the house was so tangible I couldn't help but wonder if there was some credibility to their story. As I was sitting in their living room, I looked over my shoulder and saw the ghost of the dead family's dog running down the stairs toward me. True to form, it was a bright, neon green. The shock of fright woke me instantly.

So yeah, sleepy-time has been fun around here lately.

NP: Patrick and Jonny dinking around on the piano


Category V - The Lone
Wolf
Though you'd be welcome in most groups, you prefer
a more solitary path.

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I can't promise you anything more interesting than these quizzes in the near future, as I'm not sure if anything will happen to me or in me that I feel like telling you all about. I'm in an internalization period right now (okay, so I always am, but it's stronger than usual), so all I can say is expect more quizzes to tell you exactly what you already know.

NP: You Can't Go Home Again - DJ Shadow

My japanese name is ?? Matsuo (tail of a pine tree) ?? Masato (sacred person).
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NP: Rest of My Life - Rilo Kiley

My life, being ever devoid of any subject of interest, merits no journal entries at this point. What does this mean?

Yep. More quizzes.

INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population.

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I feel it should be noted that, in keeping with my natural tendancy to defy any sort of classification, my N rating is 55.26%, my T 52.94%, and my P 52.63%. I've gotten INFP, INFJ, and INTJ when I've taken variants of this test.

Okay, for this one, I didn't actually put "female" and "happy" where it says I did. I put "male" and "other," but the HTML from this site is always messed up when I transfer it to Blogger, so yeah.

Your LJ Perfect Date
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Gender	femalemaleumm, lemme check
Mood	happyhornysadangrynotalgicannoyedother
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You have dinner at	your place
Afterwards you	steal the bat mobile for a joyride
Your date asks you	for your hand in marriage
You say	*evil laugh*
Chance you will get lucky - 24%
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Top Ramen okay with you, nakama-chan? No? Guess I'd better learn to cook, then.

NP: Girls - Death in Vegas

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (10%) very low which suggests you are extremely quiet, unassertive, and aloof. Friendliness (72%) high which suggests you are very good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too agreeable Orderliness (56%) moderately high which suggests you are organized, reliable, neat, and ambitious but possibly not very spontaneous and fun. Emotional Stability (22%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous. Openmindedness (88%) very high which suggests you are extremely intellectual, curious, imaginative but probably not very practical.

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I really don't know why I bother taking these quizzes and posting them, for they only serve to confirm what everybody already knows. I'm an aloof, friendly, intellectual emo kid. An odd combination, but oddities are commonplace when dealing with damaged goods.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to let my ears recover from the Incubus show.

NP: River Man - Nick Drake

Conscious self	Overall self

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What does your soul look like?

NP: Mujo (Uncertainty Mix) - Mortal

There is a solid mass of sadness in my heart tonight, but I'm not sure why. True, I'm tired, but I had a great day. I talked to Mel, ate Panda Express, saw Melissa's smile, heard Joe's laugh, and felt the rain on my face.

Watashi wa uso o tsukimasen. Kore wa shitsuren desu. Watashi no noroi to seikatsu desu. Kowashite, watashi no kokoro o akai kanashimi ga afurete nagarete kuru kara.

NP: Hjartao Hamast (Bamm Bamm Bamm) - Sigur Ros

Ladies and gentile-men, this quiz was taken from none other than Ryan's blog. He may act all tough and photographer-like on the exterior, but he watches Bridget Jones' Diary once a week. And he has a pony.


You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


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This is very true, by the way. My kiss is so entrancing even people going postal and kill-crazed kookaburras have been stopped dead in their tracks. I should work for the CIA.

Melissa created a monster tonight. She introduced me to DDR. Between that and EverQuest, I will never see the outside world again. Root beer and Easy Mac will sustain the never-ending stream of complete game mastery. It was nice knowing you all.

NP: Your Lucky Day in Hell - Eels


Indie rock! You're my most favourite type of
music... Your music channels lots of emotion.
On the top it seems simple, but underneath
there's always a deep meaning... As your name
you're independent from most of music! Stay
that way! Good on you! There's so much
variation in your style...from deep and
thoughtful like The Stills, to happy go lucky
like Belle & Sebastian, to dancy and catchy
Franz Ferdinand, and back to boogie down Hot
Hot Heat and The Rapture...


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NP: The Canyon Behind Her - Dredg

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Intelligence - 79%
Looks - 40%
Success - 42%
Net Worth	$90,755,943.57
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Hmmm....so my success is slightly better than my visual appeal. Given my current success rate, I guess that puts my visage under the "Stop a Clock" category. Figures.

NP: A indiscernable Phil Keaggy song

So I was levied three strikes in short order regarding my reintroduction into the system. The apartment cost more than I remember, I can only apply for CSU scholarships between January and March, and Papa John's isn't hiring. Yes, I only checked one place, but remember: I scan the classifieds every day for something more promising than the Cinemark. While I probably wouldn't mind the work there, I don't know that they'd pay enough for me to pay the bills and still have money to devote to stuff like music gear and video games. So yeah, the uphill battle didn't start off so well. Bloody system.

I listened in on [unnamed hardcore band]'s practice session last night. Patrick, Ethan, Gates, and a kid named Mark comprise this band, and they're incredible. This was their first "official" practice (at their newfound practice space with a PA), and they're very tight already. I suppose I should expect such results from musicians of that caliber, but still, it was amazing.

In a tangential spasm of good news, the warehouse complex in which this practice session is located seems very promising. If I can actually find bandmates (any local readers welcome to apply), I may be able to start up a band. The ruling of said event would be extreme. Like, really.

NP: Jurass Finish First - Jurassic 5

"Hey, dis yo' mama. Where you at, somewhere rappin'? You needs to be somewhere goin' look for you a real job. Go get you a job somewhere 'n pay some bills 'n stuff. No rappin'. Rappin' rappin' rappin' rappin'. Dat's all you wan think about is rappin'. Go get you a job boy."

Yes, kids, today's the day. I'm laying down, selling out, sucking up to the man. Jumping back into the system I want to destroy, becoming a productive member of society. I'm going job-hunting and apartment-looking. I suppose it was bound to happen eventually, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. Not entirely sure where I'll look yet; probably Cinemark and the pizza joints unless something more promising emerges from the classifieds today. I have a bead on a good apartment complex. Decent upkeep, decent rent, close to a bus route, the sort of place I could live comfortably in. No roommate at this point, though.

I have a bit of interesting news for those of you privy to my experience with the Black Dog phenomenon: the psychology prof in Northampton (that's in England for our geography majors) wrote me back Saturday. Maybe I have a future in paranormal investigation and documentation, thus voiding my need for such mundane jobs as I'm sure to find today.

Maybe not.

NP: Solace - Virus

This is disturbingly accurate.

Nothing like dinner with a group of conservative Christians to remind me exactly how alienated I feel from the body of Christ. All our conversations end with "We'll just have to agree to disagree," which is a phrase I vehemently despise coming from such people. By "such people," I mean only my dinner companions, not the entire religious right. My erstwhile companions are the sort of people who believe almost exclusively in absolute truth, giving only afterthoughts to the possibility of a relative truth's existence. Given this, to have them "agree to disagree" with me seems merely a cover for their lack of foundation. But I'm bitter, so my view is probably tainted.

After the cinema branch of Bohosofocomolodo adjourned Thursday night, I decided to drive out to my old apartment in Windsor. I didn't go in (people live there now, though my dad still owns it), but stared at the balcony railing awhile. I suppose I was trying to discern just how much the past year has changed me, how much I've grown (if at all), how things have remained the same. Dreams still wither and die like magenta flower petals, truth is still bound behind woven lies, but we as people change. We find new ways to cut through the silken strands of deceit. We find new dreams to bloom in the gardens of our hearts. Yet, even these new treasures will vanish into the inexorable cycle of death and rebirth. Time moves forward, but history repeates itself.

I took the back roads from Windsor to my parents' house. Cynthia was in her prime, gently revealing my deep blue shadow. Her pale radiance was thrown back at the night sky by a thin veil of fog slowly creeping across the silent fields. As I gazed out over the pristine solitude, the breathtaking emptiness, my thoughts drifted back to the all-too-recent past and the glimmering steel edge pressed into my right wrist. Had I not restrained myself, I would never have seen the ethereal beauty of that night, but I also would never have felt the gentle sting of tears in my eyes as I drove home tonight.

Which, in the end, is stronger? Or are they both facets of a larger whole, something I can't yet perceive?

Only time will tell.

NP: Stay Home - American Football


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So I've some good news to report: my parents are leaving for Iowa in mid-July, not late July. They return mid-September, which will see me well into the FA04 semester. Dad said he didn't want to make me worry about moving during school, so I'm supposed to go apartment-looking and find something by August. Then I can move in, get settled, but still take care of the bills and the dog at their house. I'm thinking that is a pretty sweet deal, so I'm going to take him up on it.

I've also started working on lyrics for a song. Not the first time, certainly, but hopefully my study of the various songwritings techniques exhibited in my music collection coupled with the poetic inspiration currently brooding inside me will actually bring this one to completion. Ryan, if you're reading this, I still need lessons on how to make words sing.