The Steward of Gondor - Howard Shore
So lately I've been feeling sick, and I don't know why.
Not sick as in viral or bacterial infectious stuff, but like poisoned-heart sick. I carry this punched-in-the-gut feeling around with me sometimes, and it messes with my head. Granted, this isn't always the case, but it seems to strike most often at school and at work.
Am I in a rut? Am I afraid of something(s)? Yes. But that's nothing new. Now more than ever, I've no reason to feel like this. I've an amazing girlfriend, a major I love (yes, you read that right), and something that looks like it may form into a promising career.
Yet, through all of it, I don't feel right. I don't feel like myself. Perhaps, like Ender Wiggin, I defined myself through my pain for too long. Now that it's gone, I feel incomplete. But then, what is this new feeling if not pain? Yes, it's pain, but of a different kind.
No call from Barnes & Noble yet. Looks like I might be unemployed for awhile. It might actually do me some good.
Purge you, Animose.
Not sick as in viral or bacterial infectious stuff, but like poisoned-heart sick. I carry this punched-in-the-gut feeling around with me sometimes, and it messes with my head. Granted, this isn't always the case, but it seems to strike most often at school and at work.
Am I in a rut? Am I afraid of something(s)? Yes. But that's nothing new. Now more than ever, I've no reason to feel like this. I've an amazing girlfriend, a major I love (yes, you read that right), and something that looks like it may form into a promising career.
Yet, through all of it, I don't feel right. I don't feel like myself. Perhaps, like Ender Wiggin, I defined myself through my pain for too long. Now that it's gone, I feel incomplete. But then, what is this new feeling if not pain? Yes, it's pain, but of a different kind.
No call from Barnes & Noble yet. Looks like I might be unemployed for awhile. It might actually do me some good.
Purge you, Animose.
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